It is actually snowing here today. Lovely white flakes billowing down. For my friends in the Northeast, please take no offense to my mention of what you have told me is now a nemesis for you. It is much easier to see things with wonder and awe when they are rare and fleeting. But it is no less powerful and life changing to see everything, new and old, with that same sense of presence and appreciation.
I just made my former-self puke. Perhaps you, too. What I can say with zero reservation is that, for me, this current way is 1000 percent better. Before, I was so busy being busy that I missed it all. I missed the small things and many of the big ones. I traded busy-ness for a real life. I needed to be busy in my job and workouts and whatever else I could squeeze in before I earned some wine and chips at the end of the day. Of course I continued my busy-ness during wine and chip time, too. I needed that because I didn’t know how to just be me. To be still and present with my own bad self (like James Brown baaaad self not like bad bad self.) I couldn’t see then what a joy it is to just be me. Of course, I had no clue that is what I was doing because I was unconscious and everyone I knew did exactly the same things. Not that there is anything wrong with that as Seinfeld would say, and I truly mean. If that is what I choose, you choose, anyone chooses, consciously, then excellent! Lots of good and good times in that!
I am simply shining a light so you can assess if you are conscious in your choices and your moments. I wasn’t for a very long time and I can say unequivocally that being conscious and aware rocks! I like more and more of it every day.
