I got the call yesterday afternoon. I had been waiting for it for over a week, actually. My mammogram was inconclusive. They need me to come in for a sonogram. I asked whilst getting the mammogram why I couldn’t just do the sono, because I had to last time. Well, the mammogram is still the best means of detection and we need that first, blah, blah, blah. Okay, I get it. My insurance won’t pay for the sono without the mammo. Perhaps they do need them both to properly see, but if you can’t see on the mammogram, what is the point? Why not do them both at the same time, at the very least? Why cause undue trips and time and anxiety? Well, because that is the way it is done.
Lots of learning in that little encounter. Just because that is the way it has been done, doesn’t mean it is the way it should be done. And even just because that is how we get paid doesn’t mean that it is the way that it should be done. My goal is to run my life and my business another way. A way that makes sense and a way that is most helpful to my clients. I am not naïve enough to think that it will always be ideal for my client, but I do what I can to make it more so.
The other learning opportunity here is much more personal. It is an opportunity for me to practice what I preach, what I teach. I get nearly a week, as I surf the unknown waiting for my sonogram, to practice real mental hygiene. My freddy (that is the voice of fear, doubt, old programming) is telling me that it is awful, the worst is here. He says that it is terminal and that it will be a painful mess. And what about those left behind?
Okay, freddy, calm down, honey. It is what it is. And what it is right this moment is that we don’t know. Why would we waste today inviting trouble for tomorrow? No, we have come too far for that. No matter what we will get through it. We are courageous and strong and will persevere. And we will enjoy the heck out of today for it is glorious!
