I have had an epiphany of sorts over the last few days. I have felt some frustration building and I have been watching it, observing to discern the true source. I was physically tired on Friday, having let outside factors dictate my schedule and my schedule dictate my thinking. It all comes down to thinking and my environment had not been conducive to my best thinking. My lack of quality thinking then allowed me to dwell on some things that were temporary as if they were permanent.
Now that I have rested and refocused, I see those things for exactly what they are. They are temporary. They are merely guideposts showing me, rather, flagging me to things that I am to learn. If I do not learn these things this time, then as happens in these things, they will recur.
So I choose to be still, to go inside and to ask, what is it that I am to learn here? What lesson is being delivered for my growth? What message am I getting? One is that allowing other people’s schedules to dictate mine can be a mistake, even if done for the “right” reason, if it causes me harm in the process. Listening to your gut is not selfish or foolish but will provide a better solution for you and, ultimately, for all.
The other is that going against your gut, even for something that seems small, can and will likely grow into something larger that will have to be reconciled in the end. If I think it will be okay and I somehow manage to justify it to myself in the process, unconsciously, which is normally the case in these situations, then I will find out later that there was a cost for that. The seemingly small immediate cost is a loss of self trust. My spirit knows that it has been betrayed and those betrayals add up over time. That is how we get disconnected from ourselves and the cost of that is infinite if we allow it to be.
The great news is that it is easy to get back on track and to rebuild to better than before. Just like a bone that has been broken is stronger at the mended breaking point than it was before, so is our spirit when healed. Let us embrace healing today.
